Your life is good, because you slept in as long as you pleased, and now you’re sitting in your room, on a Saturday morning, with absolutely no obligations but to entertain yourself. Your room is clean and freshly painted, and your skin smells like papaya&mango from the shower you just took. Coffee tastes good, and the view from your window gives on a sunny and busy street. The laundry machine is on and Arcade Fire is playing on your macbook. Your phone buzzes, and flashes a message from someone that makes you feel like a 15 year old schoolgirl.
Your life is good because you have people who care to know how you are, they ask you about your life, no matter how far or how close they live in relation to you. And you care about them. More than you imagined you would care, a mere 5 years ago. You have spent years building strong connections, and realising that life is about those connections, and despite where in the world you or they find themselves, you will still pick up the phone to text, or to have a skype session filled with laughters and shared concerns. Your life is good because, as guilty as you feel about not doing what your parents want you to do, and as worried as you make them feel, you have parents who care and who have always cared, in their own way. And if everything you pursue somehow one day fails and leaves you empty handed, you know that for as long as they’re alive, you have a refuge.
Your life is good because you met and continue to meet people who leave a trace in the book of your life. They make you smile, laugh, you spend evenings and weekends indulging in each other’s company, and losing yourselves in stories and aspirations. You meet them in a foreign country, on a trip you pursue on your own. You stay with them for a while, and go your separate ways. You think that there are so many great people you have yet to meet, who will one day come your way and stay, even if for a brief moment.
Your life is good because you travel. You travel as much as you possibly can, and there are so many cities and lands to be seen. There are so many birds left to observe, so many paths to walk, and that feeling of lightness, that can only come from finding yourself before a beautiful scenery to fill you in all its humility.
Your life is good because you live in one of the most beautiful and grand cities of the world, in the greatest neighbourhood of that city, on a street that caters to your every need. Your worries consist of where to find the best red thai curry, or what museum to spend this afternoon in. You go on walks, through parks, through streets, and everything still feels so new and novel, years later. While, this is temporary, so is everything else, and so you finally feel at peace that this is now, and now is all there is.
Your life is good because you’re worried about not having the capacity to worry about the future. You’re worried that one day the inevitable will happen: death of a loved one, poverty, depression. But while these are all eventual, and sometimes inevitable outcomes, they are not part of your nowness. And you feel at peace that life is not a linear path, it is a circular web, that entwines possibilities, and to’s and fro’s, that goes forward and backtracks and then turns left or right, and there is no such thing as regression as long as you are living.
Your life is good, because the worst that could happen is going to happen, and will happen to everyone. The worst is out of your control, it is granted to you in an unpremeditated moment, and it doesn’t ask for your opinion. And when the worst happens, the only thing you will be left with on your mind is how good your life was.